So it has been a long time since I have written here. To be
honest, I was a little surprised that it was even still active. None the less,
I should be sleeping, but I can't, so I am writing about it.
First off, if you have a problem with me sorta spending time
talking about myself, then just leave. I'm trying to figure things out for
myself, but I need a forum to write in, and this is it. Plus, I'm a self
centered asshole, so if you are surprised that I'm writing about myself, just
unfriend me so that you don't see it anymore.
So, at the beginning of the year I changed jobs. This really
isn't an issue as people do that all the time. I was excited to change out the
job, and I was really looking forward to advancing my field, this job isn't
what I was thinking of when I changed jobs. Mind you, the benefits are great
where I am, and it is a government job, so the retirement is quite acceptable,
but as for keeping my brain moving, it is not a good job for me. Of course, I
could learn to like it, but I feel like keeping this job, and the money that I
will eventually (5 years) make, would cause me to lose me a little bit of my
soul. That's not to say that I haven't lost a lot of my soul over the years,
but I am getting old and I'm thinking that I might want some of it later in
life perhaps.
I was realizing this when I got a call from my previous
employer talking about a job opportunity that was opening up. "What the
hell" I thought, and submitted my resume and figured I might hear
something back in a few months. Well... about a week later I got a call for an
interview. I did the interview and I felt quite good about it. The only
drawback was that moving would be required. Time then passed.
I also got an email from my teacher telling me of a job
opportunity here in town that I could try out for. She didn't send it to just
me, but the job was right in my wheelhouse, so I tossed in an application
thinking "What the hell" again.
All of this is well and good. I mean, people are always
applying for jobs and doing what they need to do to keep their family in the
means that they are accustomed to; however, that all changed this week.
On Monday, in the morning, I got a call about a second
interview for job A. Now, that's not a big deal, but the big deal is that I am
going to be flown and put up in a really nice hotel for that interview. I
managed to turn it into a trip so that the wife can see the city and experience
weather in the 70's instead of the 50's. So I got excited about that, and can't
wait for next week to go through that process.
Later in the day, I received another call about an interview
for job B. To be honest, I'm wasn't sure if I would fit in job B, mainly
because of the job market in this town. None the less, I had my interview
today.
I went after lunch and had a sit-down with them. I fully
expected that the position was going to be a glorified Peon 2 position, but I
couldn't be more wrong. The company is expanding and the job that I applied for
is honestly more of a Director of IT than the title I applied for. The position
was full of challenges and could really allow someone to grow into it. It
sounded like a REALLY amazing opportunity.
At the end of the interview, they told me that it would
probably be Friday next week before I would hear anything about a second
interview. This fit into my world plan quite well. I would have time for my
second interview at job A and then hear about job B's plans. Life was good.
I was home for 15 minutes when the phone rang. I was
surprised, as my phone never rings, and was more surprised that it was where I
just interviewed asking me for a second interview... Friday of this week. I
accepted, of course, but this created a conundrum.
This is why I am feeling all odd, because their enthusiasm
for me to get back in for a second interview has made me feel that I am in a
very good position to get that job. Now, if I had not had previously applied to
job A, I would be very excited about job B, but I don't know how to juggle the
2 opportunities at once.
That's not saying that I am sure to get job A any more than
I am I am assured to be offered job B, but I feel relatively confident in job
A. Now, in an equal world, there is a high probability that I would take the
job here and just call it good; unfortunately, I think that the money from job
A will be quite a bit higher than job B. Now I do have to move for job A, but
where I would move to has more opportunities and things to do than job B, and
job A's locale is pretty much the same cost as here with far cheaper housing
costs for real houses. (Our house is an aberration as it was so cheap.)
So the money says job A is a good bet, but I'm not sure
about the money on job B, so that could change. That leads me to the issue of
job A doing so much for this interview and making me feel slightly obligated
towards them. Of course, this is part of how corporate jobs work. So I end up
in this cycle that is keeping my mind active and not letting me sleep.
There is more to this, as the job market here is quite soft,
and since the wife is going to be out of a job later this year, I also have to
take her employment into account. I know that she could get more money
elsewhere, but we have to spend more for housing and everything there. It is
all just a huge round and round in my brain.
Anyway, maybe this seems like a First world problem, and it
really is, but it is my first world problem, thus I write about it. Who knows
how this will all end up, as I might get neither job and then I will have
wasted all this awake time for no reason, but none the less, it is giving me
fits.
Normally, I only apply for one job. Mainly because I don't
like being in this situation at all. I mean, being spoiled for choices is not a
bad thing, but in this situation, I feel like I am going to have to turn down
one of these jobs, and it will probably come down to money more than anything
else. Both of these jobs are quite interesting, and I think that I can make
both my own, but I can only be in one place at a time... stupid physics.
Someone will end up disappointed, and I just hope that it is not me.